Wednesday, July 16, 2008

my say..

everytime i got home, i jst wanna relax. so much so that, i MUCH prefer to staying home, lying down on the couch just to watch TV than going out with friends. weekends becomes very important. and most of the time, i just wanna cuddle up with the love one and enjoy the weekend without having to go anywhere. the thought of walking around shopping malls, crowded with people just turns me off. gone are the days where i used to be so eager to get to the mall either watch movie, or do some shopping.

i see some people, going all out on weekends.. and i wondered, where the hell you hav that energy? i wish for more hours a day, extra on the weekends, just so that i get to do what i want. so i was saying earlier, holidays. didnt need to be expensive. didnt need to be far. just want a relaxing few days off, without having to think of work, no responsibilities, away from the city, no extravagant activities.

i'm tempted to complain or bitch about what ticks me off. mayb i will. mayb i wont. depends on my mood.

it seems that i may shifting out from this dump! HOORRAYYY! sure, i grew up here. stayed for near all my life. the place is shit. full of hooligans and illegal immigrants. the day i'm moving out, that's the day i'm gonna throw a party somewhere. i'm gonna love the process of decorating my room, mayb try to get parents to throw in a tv too. finally getting a room of my own instead of sharing with my sista. but i might miss her, so i'm gonna ask for the joint-rooms-thru-bathroom rooms. my mum is already planning to hav an open house party, we havnt even choose whr or which house to buy yet. heh. so....... anyway, if your not invited to my new place, don't bother asking. because you are NOT. if i hav not answering your calls, or talking to you on msn, or keeping in touch with you, i'm pretty much sure that rings an alarm bell in ur head. if it doesn't then, you r damn kayu.

someone said to me this before, it's not how long you've been friends, it's how deep ur friendship is. i never had a stand of my own, always following the crowd. basically i'm always following someone's ass, which makes me an ass out of myself, thinking "wow, that's cool" in everything we all did together. what i learnt is, the hard way, that friends like that, takes advantage of you. used you, then bitched behind your back. not letting you hav a word in about it.

just a reminder, to myself and others, beware of friends who appeared to be your friend, only to find out from Another friend they are talking bout you, always always follow ur gut instinct, no matter how convincing they appear to be. beware of friends who calls you, only to hav you drive to go "shopping" so they can get a free ride. petrol aint cheap these days.

anyho, i'm glad for everything that has happened. it is Worth every second of it. because i can hav better friends. the ones that i can actually depend on, anytime of the day. the ones who is there, when i'm complaining, when i'm sick, the ones who understands whenever i had to leave early, the ones who says yes, everytime i planned a chilling out + drinking sessions, the ones who remembers and actually are concern bout what's going on with me.

dont let me get started on church-goers people. all in all, i think they are the worst. they are so fake, that even petaling street stuff seems more genuine. but i realised something these people hav in common, when they bitched and made another person's life misearable, they tend to become super kepoh about that person's life. like what's goin on bout me now, what im doin, am i still the same person or hav i changed? if i hav changed, what changed? does anyone realised that? for instance, they'll(the ones u should stay away) go thru my friendster, to view person's profile (the ones they made life miserable). all because friendster used to hav this if-i-view-u, u-can-see-that-i've-viewed-you thing. why friendster? because this incident happened quite sometime ago.

so just beware lah k?

oh! time to go! tummy rumbling.


Anonymous said...

Hey babe,

hope u are feeling better after this post..

life is full of ups and downs...people come and go...only true frenz stay...eventually, it will take a longer time for you to find out...chill ya...

hahhaa...yeah, i am so totally agree with you that weekend to hang out in shopping mall is crazy with the crowd and jam and all...

reply my msn la...miss 'bs-ing' with you...


lynnz said...

hey charzy!

exactly, finding it out the hard way. oh well, at least thr's some entertainment in life correct? heh heh.

which is why we must use our annual leave to go shopping instead! heh heh.

sorry lah. when i'm away i always forget to shut my msn. heh heh. heard adrian's back! whr's that loud mouth?? hahaha.. tell him i say hi...*waves*